Saturday, January 15, 2011
Then Sings My Soul Saturday
As I continue to look back on the year that was 2010, I am struck at the fact that it was indeed the hardest year I have ever experienced in a while.
This last year brought a lot of confession, pain, forgiveness, healing and restoration in my life in a number of areas. At the time, I admit I asked the question, "why?" Why did I have to go through this. I thought my life was going well.
Little did I know the journey that God would take me on and the lessons I would learn. Through all the hard times, the lesson that I needed to learn was that I needed to come back to my Lord. I was like the Israelites in the Wilderness and had to learn to draw to Him to get through the trials. This is my wilderness experience and I have two choices: to complain and grumble or deal with it and learn from it. I choose to deal and learn.
It is through these difficult times I have gone through that I have learned to be a better mom, wife and daughter of the King. I have never dug into the Word as much as I have in the last year. I have never prayed so earnestly as I have in the last year. I have never questioned as much as I have in the last year. I have never cried as much as I have in the last in (at least in a long time). But I have never learned so much as I have in the last year and for that I am so incredibly thankful to God for bringing to and through 2010.
I am on a journey and it is still ongoing. The time may come in the future that I will go into details but for now, I will not divulge specifics. Just know that the journey continues.
But even in the hard times I have lifted my hands to Him and said thank you, and I know that He is faithful and always will be.
For Christmas, I received Chris Tomlin's newest CD, "And If Our God Is For Us" and I cannot tell you what a blessing it has been to me over the last couple weeks. Actually, all of Tomlin's music has been, but this CD has been a reminder of what I have been through and all that God has done in my life in the last year.
I Lift My Hands is from this CD and it is my prayer that this song will bless you as it has blessed me.